I first came to Bangkok for my internship and been working and living in Bangkok for 5 years now. Student life and work life are totally different. I had to separate certain percent of my salary to support my family since the first time I got paid and I figured out quickly what responsibility and priority are. I have a passion in IT so I started my first job in IT company. I was an executive secretary for a president of the company for 2 years and quit because it was boring. Before I quit that job, I was studying GMAT because I wanted to go to Wharton. But after considering my responsibility to my family, not only that I have to fight for scholarship but I also can’t quit paying my family so I have to hold my Wharton plan.
I was looking for a new job and had 5 job offers at that time and I picked this company because of its excellent reputation, great IT company, smart people, that was what I looking for. I didn’t have any knowledge about IT or technical background when I started this job. I’ve been having fun learning and selling IT solutions, dealing with thousand of different people – colleague, clients, partners, vendors, competitors. One year and a half pass by from having zero knowledge about IT to closed win a million$ cloud deal, I’d realized something. I am the odd, still. How? Imagine you are drawing a box, it is my company, I walked in there, went to every corners of the box, met everyone of 300 people in the box and walked in that box over and over. Sometimes I said let’s get out of the box but majority people said to me no because they don’t want to go with me. Giving a real example, last year we just launched our global private cloud base solution. Nobody wanted to sell it, engineer didn’t want to implement and always BOM an old school on-premise solutions for me(I mean I can BOM that myself, shall we make something new?). Or when I said every clients are unique and we can’t offer them the same pattern or solution and they just said to me as always, well Annie, we have standard to maintain. So I tried to blend to these people. It was stressful to ”maintain standard” until one day I decided to go ahead and learn this new thing by myself. I was a presale myself and sold 2VM to the first client. Up until these days 80% of cloud base clients are mine.
This is just an example of how I feel when having to deal with internal people whom I know what they are going to say or do or even if about technical I can Google it without having to ask them. I can’t expect any new exciting idea from these people. Everyday I have to deal with same people, same idea, same set of mine. It is boring and I feel like I am the odd. Not only about work but also personal. Like while I want to discuss about the latest launch of SpaceX F9R, my friends/colleague would always talks about their latest collection of Jimmy Choo or their celeb Benz driving boyfriends. Or when I said hey I just started learning Python, they would be like what is it? and start talking about Hollywood gossip. Don’t even thinking about books or reading. Thai people rarely read, trust me.Sometimes I ask myself am I having a social interaction problem? Then I realized, no absolutely not, I am an excellent player on making the deal or whenever I attend networking event or any event. I like meeting new people and enjoy the art of communications. Anyway, of all these things, I was thinking maybe I should move out of Bangkok, change to work for different company, different kinds of people? So I applied for AWS Singapore, luckily they arranged an interview with me but unfortunately they didn’t choose me and without telling me a reason why.
However, because I couldn’t ”maintain standard”, I still want to quit this job and I considered seriously to make my freelance consultant job to be a real consulting firm. But as a country girl who always dream big about working in a wold class company, surround with smart people, discover the world and be one of those who make new history, I revise my CV and is planing to apply for Google, Rackspace and Akamai. Until last night, a friend of mine said to me, you know what Annie, any corporation are the same. They can’t be innovative and you will have to deal with the same thing you’re dealing with right now. Same culture, same set of mine, same idea and you have to follow them. And I bet that you will end up leaving your dream job. I get what he said but quite not sure should I agree with him or not. I mean I’m not sure if those company will offer me my dream job or not but if one of them does, will I end up dealing with what I’m dealing with right now? If so, I rather start my own business from scratch and devote my time on something making me satisfied for this adventurous and precious life. Or maybe go ahead and try to get my dream job and I will find out what’s next? I personally a dreamer kind of person and always pursue the dreams. I don’t know. I’m kinda lost. It is really stressful and I must find out the way out soon. It is not only myself but I have huge responsibility about my family also.